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   Let's welcome our beloved friend Nepali 08-Oct-03 bhunte
     Ustad=Ostaz 08-Oct-03 bhunte
       Not sure if it is revelation. I guess 09-Oct-03 Biswo
         But it appears that I have seen him in s 09-Oct-03 bhunte
           Dear Nepe, Welcome to overground!! eh 09-Oct-03 Bond-007
             Hi Nepe Ji: Can't believe, Chemist ca 09-Oct-03 mustange
               patttyaune ki napattyaune. hatteri 09-Oct-03 rajunpl
                 It wasn't easy at all to remain in the c 09-Oct-03 Nepe
                   Mustange ji, Ah ! the advantage of be 09-Oct-03 Nepe
                     Nepe urff Deepak ji Nice poem. Now it 09-Oct-03 forget-me-not
                       Welcome OUT Nepe ji :) Have enjoyed your 09-Oct-03 SimpleGal
                         Wow! So the person I was having email ex 09-Oct-03 M.P.
                           Timro aagaman =========== Timi aunda l 09-Oct-03 Gokul
                             one of few down, more to go. 09-Oct-03 jira
                               Hmm, who knows who is behind the scene!! 09-Oct-03 Logical Sense
                                 Nepe ji!!!!!!!!! To be or Not to be.. 09-Oct-03 SITARA
                                   O, ho...Nepe jyu!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kyaaaaa 09-Oct-03 Poonte
                                     So who are you going to write as now Mr 09-Oct-03 Bilbo Baggins
                                       Finally, coming out fo THE GENERAL :)))) 09-Oct-03 Horizon
Now i know why Nepe's gajals are so orga 09-Oct-03 Bhunte
   Nepe, so glad to put your name and face 09-Oct-03 ashu
     Ashu ji, yo Dasai ma malai kasto fala 09-Oct-03 Bhunte
       Dayummmmm!! I thought you are some "j 10-Oct-03 KaLaNkIsThAn
         "I think that anonymity brings the best 10-Oct-03 Suna
           Finally! I used to wonder as many of us 10-Oct-03 NK
             Nepe Ji, Abuiii, Dr. Nepe ta herda kyaa 10-Oct-03 Rusty
               Rusty: If I remember correctly, yes h 10-Oct-03 mustange
                 "khai ke bho ke bho--yastai bho" Fau 10-Oct-03 Deep
                   It's a real pleasure to have a feeling o 10-Oct-03 Nepe
                     Mustange ji, Lau barbad bho ! So you 10-Oct-03 Nepe
                       Nepeji, Nepe ko ho, Dipak ko ho? Bhau 10-Oct-03 Gunaraj
                         Guna, I am proud to be called a Guru 10-Oct-03 Nepe
                           Ghyampo jatro pet ta bhai sakyo, Deepak 10-Oct-03 Poonte
                             Talk about an immaculate all rounder. Ho 10-Oct-03 oys_chill
                               Nepeji, What a surprise! A nice one. I 10-Oct-03 sparsha
                                 Sparsa, In politics we are equally li 10-Oct-03 Bhunte
                                   Ahhh, Nepe jyu...finally letting it ouT! 10-Oct-03 najar
                                     Bhunte, "In politics we are equally lia 10-Oct-03 sparsha
                                       Please read the following "The concept o 10-Oct-03 sparsha
Sparsa, the chemistry of words is wonder 10-Oct-03 Bhunte
   "Sparsa, the chemistry of words is wonde 10-Oct-03 sparsha
     Sparsha, no no no ...you didn't disap 10-Oct-03 Bhunte
       Nepe ji, Good memory. I also introduced 11-Oct-03 mitra 2
         Oys, First of all, I did not have a c 11-Oct-03 Nepe
           Nepeji, Your mention of "Anupraas" and 11-Oct-03 Gokul
             <br> Nepe replied to Sparsha: "....I 11-Oct-03 Bhunte
               Nepe! Mero byangabaan lay tikho katta 11-Oct-03 jira
                 Again dedicated to Nepe, Nidara chhau 11-Oct-03 Bhunte
                   Bhunte, Please just don't dedicate to 11-Oct-03 sparsha
                     sparsha, your suggestion is appreciated. 11-Oct-03 Bhunte
                       nepe ji i like your gazal, this is my fi 11-Oct-03 bold
                         i am sorry i am new to ur gazal,actualy 12-Oct-03 bold
                           Let me join the crowd with my applause! 12-Oct-03 Arnico
                             Nepeji, I have been following your writi 12-Oct-03 Binay
                               My compliments to an accomplished thinke 12-Oct-03 czar
                                 Ditto!! 12-Oct-03 Dilasha
                                   rephrasing la hai Nakoriyeka kesha de 12-Oct-03 Bhunte
                                     Gokul ji, I have gotten glimpses of y 13-Oct-03 Nepe
                                       NePe sir, It was not surprising to me 14-Oct-03 GP
Dr. Deepak, I am new in Sajha so don't 14-Oct-03 DHANANJAYA


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bhunte Posted on 08-Oct-03 09:16 PM

Let's welcome our beloved friend Nepali Gajal Samrat and Ustad Madsab tei hamro 'Nepe' Dr. Deepak Khadka :) Finally, we got you!....ehehe

bhunte Posted on 08-Oct-03 09:17 PM

Ustad=Ostaz
Biswo Posted on 09-Oct-03 12:51 AM

Not sure if it is revelation.

I guess a lot of us knew it all along. Anyway, thanks for coming out of closet!
bhunte Posted on 09-Oct-03 01:20 AM

But it appears that I have seen him in some headline news in Nepal...couldn't recall exactly though...
Bond-007 Posted on 09-Oct-03 08:36 AM

Dear Nepe,

Welcome to overground!! ehehehehe!

Yours truly,
Bond-007
mustange Posted on 09-Oct-03 08:52 AM

Hi Nepe Ji:

Can't believe, Chemist can also write sooooo nice gajals. How are you doing ? Did you know anything about RLABB lately ?

rajunpl Posted on 09-Oct-03 09:13 AM

patttyaune ki napattyaune. hatteri
Nepe Posted on 09-Oct-03 10:38 AM

It wasn't easy at all to remain in the closet. The pressure was too high, temptation unbearable. Had it not been for my initial childish precautionary measure- not to put myself in harm's way- owing to my extreme political views, I would have enjoyed fresh air of outside and my 'self' all these years, okay, two years, in Sajha ! I would not be trying hard to find words to make my oneness with Deepak ambivalent every time I was confronted.

I fondly recall first ever such confrontation by Biswo ji, Paschim and Mitra2 more than a year ago and what I said to these gentlemen. I said- I am gonna show Nepe and Deepak are two different persons in upcoming ANA convention, even if that takes for me to act Mr. Doubtfire ! (Fortunately, none of us were able to show up in the convention, ehehe). Even in the recent confrontation by dear Bhunte ji, I spent several minutes to arrive at some ambivalent sentences.

However, these were all futile and not more than for a fun. Biswo, Paschim, GP and some others knew who I was and I knew that they knew that I knew that they knew me all along. My denial was basically to entertain them and others who came to know me personally since then.

Anyway, now I still feel great. I still feel a burden lessened by revealing myself to all my Sajha friends who were kind enough to tolerate my extreme political views and still complimenting to my amateur poetry. Had it not been for your compliments, dear friends, my poetry would still be in my closet, literally.

Thank you, Bhunte, Biswo. Bond-007, Mustange and those friends who sent me complimentary emails.

Sounds like I am giving a speech, no ? Okay then, let me say it - at last but not the least, I have to say the following.

Although I decided to reveal my identity at this point, I do not regret whatever anonymous life I had in Sajha. As a matter of fact, I do not think I would have been as frank as I was in my comments, as offensive as I was to many whom I offended, as exaggerating as I was in my pursuit of poetic romance and yada yada.

I think that anonymity brings the best (or the worst, depending upon our perception) out of us. So I am firm on that we should keep respecting and celebrating anonymity in Sajha. Without anonymity, Sajha wouldn't have been what it is today.

Nepe
Delighted to reveal the identity and still celebrating the anonymity
Nepe Posted on 09-Oct-03 10:42 AM

Mustange ji,

Ah ! the advantage of being the real person. Now I deserve to know you, sir. Do send me a bijulipatra.
forget-me-not Posted on 09-Oct-03 10:49 AM

Nepe urff Deepak ji

Nice poem. Now its your show time....take your time...
SimpleGal Posted on 09-Oct-03 10:56 AM

Welcome OUT Nepe ji :) Have enjoyed your gazals and various writing! :) I am glad to see that sajha has become like a family and most of us are gradually coming out from the shade of anonymity and into the warm sunlight of reality!
M.P. Posted on 09-Oct-03 12:46 PM

Wow! So the person I was having email exchanges with, except in the last three months or so, and directing him to read Nepe's articles was Nepe himself. It's been a while, Nepe probably does not remember all that; it must have made him laugh, anyway!

As Sajha--or at least some of the people here--celebrate Nepe's coming out, I feel for all those--I do not mean to spark a war in here with this statement--who will no longer have their you-are-anonymous-I-am-not weapon.

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Note to Dr Khadka: If you are still in Maryland area, let me know if/when you are coming to Philadelphia or places near by. It will be a pleasure to meet you and to hear your gazals, thoughts on politics etc., in person.
Gokul Posted on 09-Oct-03 01:24 PM

Timro aagaman
===========
Timi aunda lagthyo
Tufaan uthnechha, Jwalamukhi phutnechha
Kathor vichaarharu - tee jo kaid chhan.


Tara timi -Sahaj ayau
Jasari Sharad aunchha
Komal bhavanaharu - tee jo unmukta chhan.

Aba
Euta Bodhisatva ko peeda
Gantabya pugnu ko peeda
Paaradarshan ko peeda
jira Posted on 09-Oct-03 01:47 PM

one of few down, more to go.
Logical Sense Posted on 09-Oct-03 02:01 PM

Hmm, who knows who is behind the scene!!!

Welcome Out (quoting Simplegal) Dr. Sahib, as jira said one down many more to go!!!

Some more identity THEFT! (I scrampled the telephone numbers - Thatta Gareko)

Khadka, Deepak k

Phone: (X0X) xx6-x36x
Lab and Unit: Location: 6B/xxx
Laboratory of Molecular Genetics
Specialty: Molecular Genetics Section on Vertebrate Development

Is this true?
SITARA Posted on 09-Oct-03 02:03 PM

Nepe ji!!!!!!!!!

To be or Not to be...... Unveiled! That has always been an intriguing question for many Sajhaites. And now, you have chosen the former. Although, the shroud of mystery served to enhance our imaginations prompted by such romantic and powerful gazals, we are delighted to meet the wizard of words and chemist of progressive political thought!

As Winnie the Pooh says, "So nice to meet you!".

:)
Poonte Posted on 09-Oct-03 02:04 PM

O, ho...Nepe jyu!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Kyaaaaaaaaaa radz bhontani :(

Tyo Ghazal-sazal pad-da ta jhandai lop parnai parnai laai sakya thyo...bho ta aba? DEEPAK KHADKA re...aaimai ko naam ta Deepak hunna kyara...mero sara sapana sisa jhain chanachur bhaye :((((((((((((((( [euta arko ghazal jawos na yesko lagi] ;)

Nice, nice...Deepak jyu...congratulations!
Bilbo Baggins Posted on 09-Oct-03 02:22 PM

So who are you going to write as now Mr Nepe Ji!!:)
Horizon Posted on 09-Oct-03 02:27 PM

Finally, coming out fo THE GENERAL :))))))))))
Bhunte Posted on 09-Oct-03 06:15 PM

Now i know why Nepe's gajals are so organic full of pheromone...I can see the power of alchemy there!
ashu Posted on 09-Oct-03 06:22 PM

Nepe, so glad to put your name and face together. For the longest time, in your anonymity, you were really the Yeti of Sajha :-)

Now, you've turned out to be a mere brown bear, like most of us :-)
Just joking, hai.

Next project, Bhunte: Let's try to out 'Prachanda' on Sajha from the jungles of Rolpa :-)

oohi
ashu
ktm,nepal
Bhunte Posted on 09-Oct-03 06:58 PM

Ashu ji,

yo Dasai ma malai kasto falam ko chiura dinu bhayeko? hmmm...Prachanda lai yo sajhapur ma fela parna lai ta ti sajha ka krantikari maobadi haru le matrai sakchhan tyo kam fatte garna...at least i can expose those writing thesis on maobadi...you will see that pretty soon.

KaLaNkIsThAn Posted on 10-Oct-03 04:11 AM

Dayummmmm!!

I thought you are some "jhyapulle", euta haat ma sauni ko tharrra, arko haat ma yak churot liyeko, skinny, kurlung kurling kapaal bhaa ko, jahile ni jhuli-rahane, purano GF lai birshana nasakera usko galli ma rumallihidne, aashik aawara... eh... Kyaaa deceptive... Manche ta khai laai paako, goatee mileko Dr. Saap po hoi bakshido rahecha....
eh... Dr Dr, gimme a pilll, i have bad case of payin' too many bills... eh.

About that Poem: That was one of the best poems I've ever read. Superb...
Aru pani jaawos please. eh...

By the way hazur dil ko doctor ta hoina hagi?? ehh... Check up garunu parne bhaa thyo ;)
Suna Posted on 10-Oct-03 05:35 AM

"I think that anonymity brings the best (or the worst, depending upon our perception) out of us. So I am firm on that we should keep respecting and celebrating anonymity in Sajha. Without anonymity, Sajha wouldn't have been what it is today."

Respectful and wonderful words from La creme de la creme!!


NK Posted on 10-Oct-03 06:50 AM

Finally! I used to wonder as many of us did, 'who the hell is this "Nepe?" 'So, you are a chemist too?? What a mhaaavelous mix! Not only left, your right brain works too!

(Surprise always awaits whenever I click on Sajha)
Rusty Posted on 10-Oct-03 07:04 AM

Nepe Ji,
Abuiii, Dr. Nepe ta herda kyaa darlagdo manche po racha, feri Chemist pani.... Did you ever appear in any Nepali movie as a villian? ehehe!! J/K

mustange Posted on 10-Oct-03 08:28 AM

Rusty:

If I remember correctly, yes he used to appear in some TV movies but I forgot what was the role villian or Hero ?? Am I right Nepe Ji ?
Deep Posted on 10-Oct-03 09:11 AM

"khai ke bho ke bho--yastai bho"

Fau aakai thiyena Nepe, bairi bho
Rangiyeko man matrai haina hawa pani

Tihar ghumti mai thyo, fukeko thyo juwa
Tara dau ajhai khalinai


Mandap ghazal thiyo, behuli bhawana
Pandit Nepe thyo ani behula pani


Dubeko Nepe thiyo tel ma, balera ghazal batti ma
Salkeko thiyo tara Deepak lukera aago ma.
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VELKAM Nepe dai VELKAM. Swagat chha. "Vimsengola ko kasam -range hat-fela pare tapailai manchhe le--- kasso *kuwari ma* jasari samatenan"--aaba aaunus dhungegau/chattanegau (tyai city ma haina tapai dai?) ma basera dakhin tira herdai gam 'khullam khulla ghazal lekhenge sajha---maaa"
Nepe Posted on 10-Oct-03 09:38 AM

It's a real pleasure to have a feeling of being well received by friends on this day personally important to me. Thank you.

As I implied in my improvised prologue, the ghazal above, I meant to be completely nirvastra in front of my friends at this moment. So I will gladly take any query about me, in this forum or in private emails, from any of you as an honor.

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FMNot,

Thank you.

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Simpu,

Nicely put word about Sajha. Re anonymity, I think itis a matter of being comfortable. Your training is in psychology. So you can explain it better than I can. But I think, from my own experience, a long use of ones virtual personality blurs it's virtuality. It becomes you, of course within the limitation set by yourself and the limitation ranging from a complete to partial duplication of yourself to a complete to partial misrepresentation of yourself. You want to have it belonging to you, you feel a responsibility to it, you want to give it a legacy and you are emotionally attached to it. M.P. ji reminded me and
wondered if I was surprised to have referred to Nepe's writings. The truth is it was quite normal to me. I did not have to make an effort to distinguish between them and still completely identifying with them. My human faculty, moral department and everything under it were intact. I had problem only with one or two disposable alias I used before I registered as Nepe. Anyway, this is not to make any statement. I just wanted to share my experience.

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M.P. ji

Ehehehe ! Yes, I am wehre I was and will be here until next summer. It will be my pleasure to meet you.

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Gokul ji,

No offence to others, but nobody could have understood my peeda better than you have. Gantabya pugnu ko peeda, ah ! I just hope I will be able to still see
another stretch of yatra and hopefully the next shibir in distance.

Ghar ko dhanda saken, ban ko baanki rai'chha
Bida mero griha, baanaprastha chhu ma

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Jira,

The byanga-baaN carrying hunter of Sajha, Guleli pani bokeko bhanya ?

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L.S.,

The most logical mind of Sajha, you got it right. Yes, your finding is true. I work at NIH as a postdoctoral fellow. I am losely a molecular geneticist and development (embryology) is my fresh field of training. I spend most of my working hours looking at tiny wonder of nature, that would be, developing frog embryos on a petri dish !

To all, Chemistry is my very old history. I just had a Masters degree in Chemistry from TU and worked for a while in RLABB where I got in touch with, let's say Biochemistry. Then I moved to Molecular biology and got my Ph.D.- in a country in the Middle East ! Oh boy, what a winding road ! Let me add this too. My first college was a Law campus. I studied a full semester in Law Campus, Kathmandu !!!

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Poonte ji,

Mauka pare aamlaa kunai din tyausi chadhera hajur ko ma ra rausi le tanna pet bharera gaamlaa-

Nepe Poonte bhet bhayo
Ghyampa jatro pet bhayo !

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Horizon,

Yap, the General of an disarmed (Ni:shastra) force for now !

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Bhunte,

Pheromone ? androgenin and dopamine too, No ? Thank you.

On a different note, I think, based on my two years of observation, Sajha is the last fort to fall to the Maoists. Sajha has remained as the strongest fort and a common shelter for a complete spectrum of anti-Maoist forces, from the royalists to the revolutionary democratic republicans.

It will be a complete different story if you put in the Maoists basket the forces that advocate for the progressive agendas that Maoists have, I prefer to call it, hijacked from the rest of us.

Anyway, I think we can consider Sajha as a Maoist-free place. So we better deploy our weapons in the places that are falling to the Maoists. Any place in the country outside the ring road will do for the moment, I assume.

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Ashu,

What a satik metaphor for me ! From Yeti to a mere brown bear. Now that I have come to the sunshine, my color will dark even stronger and I'll become a black bear pretty soon, ehehe.

Outing Prachanda from the jungle of Rolpa to Sajha is indeed an exciting proposition. However, let's be forewarned it won't be easy. I think it is as easy/difficult as outing the King Gyanendra from the Royal Palace to Sajha. I wish both of these Prachanda Pratapi Bhoopati (one is the bhoopati of 1/3 and the other is of the 2/3 of the land of Nepal !) can be brought to Sajha and we can have a question or two to these suprimos.


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Kalanki,

Thanks for the compliment and your impressive imagination. Look with your mind's eye, I am exactly what you had imagined.


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Suna,

You flattered me. Chhadke salaam, hajur.

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NK,

I am not a chemist anymore. However, I think about a chemistry that did not develop between NK and me, all the time !

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Rusty,

Villain dekheko malaai ? My bad luck. But I did play a Hero in a drama and a video film. I am proud with the theater. But the video, it was the jhoorest possible acting and the production itself. I just hope nobody has seen it.



Nepe Posted on 10-Oct-03 09:45 AM

Mustange ji,

Lau barbad bho ! So you have seen what I dreaded most. Anyway, I haven't checked my mail in past one hour. I expect one bijulipatra from you, hajur.


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Deep,

My favorite storywriter, Thank you for the kabita too. I am honored. But more joy will be when we get to read another bejod katha from you.
Gunaraj Posted on 10-Oct-03 09:57 AM

Nepeji,

Nepe ko ho, Dipak ko ho? Bhautik rup ma kahile bhet bhayeko hoina... tara ... I knew from the beginning it was you in double role.... Dhilo chando bhandabhor ta garinu nai parthyo... natra bhitra bhitrai antardwanda ko ago ma afai salkera marinthyo hola.... I was waiting when you reveal yourself..... In ghazal words, you are my guru! really.
Nepe Posted on 10-Oct-03 10:07 AM

Guna,

I am proud to be called a Guru by you. But trust me, I dream about you as my Guru for Nepali language. And it is a pride to know you knew me.

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Mustange ji,

If you have difficulty locating, my emails are:
neppe2002@yahoo.com
khadkad@mail.nih.gov


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The most embarrassing thing, I replied to all but missed my most beloved star, Sitara. Yastai hunchha. Okay next time.

Poonte Posted on 10-Oct-03 10:13 AM

Ghyampo jatro pet ta bhai sakyo, Deepak jee!!! Aba ki byauna paryo...ki futauna paryo yo pet! ehehe

On a serious note, please do not hesitate to get in touch with me whenever you are in my area...it surely would be a pleasure to share a bottle of Johnny with you, listening to your ghazals, and talking poltiks, and, of course, about Sahja! ;)
oys_chill Posted on 10-Oct-03 11:48 AM

Talk about an immaculate all rounder. How do you do it Nepe dai? The face looked awfully similar, and when someone mentioned NTV, even more....and molecular and developmental biology? chemist or the alchemist? ok all about that, I will perhaps have to write to you personally! For a person like me lost in search of an academic career, your long and winding road serves as a subtle inspiration to say the least!

and revealing yourself through the gajal!! what can I say, thoroughly u make ppl speechless! Nice to know the person beyond those enchanting postings!
sparsha Posted on 10-Oct-03 08:13 PM

Nepeji,
What a surprise! A nice one. I was guessing for a while and you just confirmed it. Humble expressions in ghazals are your assets but those expressions on politics are your liabilities, in my opinion. Don't you think so? Let's not forget, liabilities in politics weigh heavier and are more dynamic than assets. So, I think. It is the liabilities in politics that inspire people to stand up.
Bhunte Posted on 10-Oct-03 08:30 PM

Sparsa,

In politics we are equally liable. Why "nepe" alone to bear the burden?? If there are any liability in Nepe's account we'll stand up to bail him. Let's respect freedom of speech in Sajha fulbari...
najar Posted on 10-Oct-03 08:38 PM

Ahhh, Nepe jyu...finally letting it ouT! :)
To tell you honestly, i too was told that you were a daaktar saab, did not know what kind of doctor--thought you were a medical daaktar. Saarai bidwaan hunu hundo raichha haamro nepejyu, with a diverse road travelled, and i hope now with coming *OUT* you still do not the break the continuum of sharing your ghazal creativity and political analysis with us. Arko kura--i still wish you had come to our NY get together. WOuld have been fun to hear your ghazals in your own voice, and political discussion---Nepe jyu le nimtaa dekhya nadekhyi gardine :(!

Aba euta prashna sodham hai----What made you reveal your identity? i know there were a few curiosities, but i am sure there was more than that for you really let go your mask :)

And btw, i will take the ghazal you wrote for me on my b'day and recite it next sat at the denchling restaurant next sat :)

Your face really looks familiar.
sparsha Posted on 10-Oct-03 08:47 PM

Bhunte,
"In politics we are equally liable.."

I don't think so. I specifically challange the word "equally" you have used. The concept of "leadership" cleary defies this sense of equally liable.

I was rather praising not attacking Nepeji in my above expression, which-it seems- you took defensively. Look at the ending sentence "It is the liabilities in politics that inspire people to stand up." Where do you see negative sentiments here?

Now, before you attempt to judge whether I am attacking your personality, let me make myself clear. I have nothing but respect for you, at this point.


sparsha Posted on 10-Oct-03 08:51 PM

Please read the following "The concept of "leadership" cleary defies this sense of equally liable. " as "The concept of "leadership" clearly defies this sense of equally liable. "

I apologize for the error. Thank you.

Bhunte Posted on 10-Oct-03 09:04 PM

Sparsa, the chemistry of words is wonderful!
sparsha Posted on 10-Oct-03 09:29 PM

"Sparsa, the chemistry of words is wonderful!"

Is it Bhunte? I am lost. So, how do I know what you want me to know? Am I disappointing you again-aadha raat ma?
Bhunte Posted on 10-Oct-03 11:14 PM

Sparsha,

no no no ...you didn't disappoint me at all. instead you cleared any confusion i had earlier. thx sathi...
mitra 2 Posted on 11-Oct-03 08:36 AM

Nepe ji,
Good memory. I also introduced myself to you with my real name during Numafung movie show if you remember. Anyway, I loved the way you revealed yourself with a nice ghazal. Aapka ghazal ka koi jawaf nahi :)
Nepe Posted on 11-Oct-03 01:18 PM

Oys,

First of all, I did not have a chance to let you know how much I was impressed by your reply in Milkman's thread. Your's was a mature response. Milkman must have been disappointed that he did not get a silly response to his silly provocation.

My all rounding was, to be honest, my inability to organize my life. Therefore I am a caution model rather than a role model. My advice to all is- take control of your life, don't let others have the control. My political view is also, on the whole, a reflection of this conviction.

Regarding choosing right academic career, my fundamental suggestion is that it is not the field itself but to excel in it is important. Then comes, your personal interest, future reward and satisfaction. But again, you should keep in mind that the world is rapidly changing and will keep changing and that the grass on the other side of the fence is always greener. Nevertheless, it is very important to have a good counseling. I am sure there are experienced people in Sajha and outside who can give you a good counseling. Medini ji (In charge of Student Affairs, ANA) might be a good point to start.

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Sparsh ji,

Well said. I feel very similar to what you said. I indeed feel I do poetry because I want and I do politics because I must.


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Bhunte ji,

You have no idea how true and painful thing you just said about me although in a slightly different terms. It hurts to go out to the battlefield and see many good people on the enemy side and their failure to bail me out from my too big a liability I have already openly and in full detail shown to them.

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Najar,

So hajur ko najar maa I was already not a secret ! I did not know that. I admit and apologize that I hid myself in case of NY get-together. I had certain majboori and the other reason was that I was thinking I am still a fictional character to all those who were gathering there. So it would not make much difference if I failed to response or kept a low profile. However, I do owe an apology to all. Forgive me, hai ?

On the reason I decided to reveal myself, as I said at the very beginning without elaborating much, the pressure was too high and the temptation unbearable. I don't know which was more decisive but I was already semi-anonymous. I hate semi things, whether it is a semi-love, a semi-democracy or a semi-anonymity. And the second reason was I wanted to make a political statement. So this is both- a personal political statement as well as my desire to be more intimate with the people whom I love.

I am extremely delighted to hear that you are going to recite the ghazal I presented on your birthday on Sajha get together in Kathmandu. Please give my personal greetings to all and my message that I share the joy of being a part of these wonderful Sajhaites in Kathmandu.

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Mitra2,

Pranam bhandhu ! Thank you for letting me know that's you. Chinera asaadhyai khushi laagyo. Aba arko bhet ma yaabat kura garamlaa. Did you like the 'anupraash' and 'antyaanupraash' I used in the latest ghazal, by the way ?
Gokul Posted on 11-Oct-03 02:11 PM

Nepeji,
Your mention of "Anupraas" and "Antyanupras" inspired me to reread your ghazal and surprisingly I realized that not only does this ghazal conform to a classic structure radiating a beauty that is so quintessential to "Poorveeya Kavya-Shastra" but also corroborates a belief in a philosophy that is so universal, age-old and essentially oriental. If I say that these 4 stanzas summarize the essence of the Chapter 11 of the Geeta, I would neither be exaggerating nor flattering. I consider this ghazal as a conversation between Arjun and Krishna- ViratSwarup Darshan - a moment of intense revelation.
(a) Those who fear most arm themselves most -how true even in the modern context!
(b)The fear of defeat and extinction is deep-rooted in human psychology through million years of evolutionary struggle for survival. The freedom from within is the ultimate freedom.
(c)The moment of revelation does not last for ever. Krishna, Buddha, Mohammed, Christ all talked about this.
(d)The dichotomy, the schizophrenic existence is the greatest malady afflicting the modern man who is forever in search of his soul.

Creators never know what they have created for they are only the medium and not the owner of the creation.
Bhunte Posted on 11-Oct-03 04:16 PM



Nepe replied to Sparsha: "....I indeed feel I do poetry because I want and I do politics because I must. "

Let me put this way as the pic speaks thousands words.

Nakoriyeka kesha dekhda rhidaya ka KABI jasta 2
Bhireko jholi dekhda katai bidhyarthi NETA jasta 2
Ye hajurrrr Nepe hajurrr...
Ooha ta parnu bhayechha hamrai DR. Khadkha !

jira Posted on 11-Oct-03 04:21 PM

Nepe!

Mero byangabaan lay tikho kattai haniyeko bhaye maaph paam. Bhoolchook lineydiney.
I was well aware of your hidden identity after a friend of mine told me year and half ago. Tell you the truth, I was just in line to respect your privacy like others did until you came out from the closet. Your baby pic lai samanupaatik tawar lay agewise zoom garey tyo Nepe ko anuhaar sanga kattikutti milcha. I do not think that I am the only one to notice that. Je hose..dai lai mero tarfa bata namaskaar cha ...pheri mula jira...naam ra photo po dekhako ta.......barsha kalley batayo tunlai bhanni parla...anyatha nasamjhinu..kunnai din ma ni closet bata niskamla kammal odhera..auni tyati bela nai deemla yo DAI ko justification pani...................hai
Bhunte Posted on 11-Oct-03 08:14 PM

Again dedicated to Nepe,

Nidara chhau bira Nepe judhau bairi sanga ankha 2
Dagdaina bidwan yi Nepe kalam chha oosko sakha 2

Hansilo chhau timi Nepe satru ko pani mana jitna 2
Joshilo chhau timi Nepe ama ko pani sapana sakarna 2


sparsha Posted on 11-Oct-03 09:13 PM

Bhunte,

Please just don't dedicate too much stuff to Nepeji. He might get worried. I think Jira ji was scared once here in sajha when someone dedicated something to him.

As they say, when you receive "life time award", it means your days are over. You might scared a vibrant soul with an undeclared threat of history through a number of dedications.

I am not dictating you, hai. please note.

Bhunte Posted on 11-Oct-03 09:34 PM

sparsha, your suggestion is appreciated.
bold Posted on 11-Oct-03 11:59 PM

nepe ji i like your gazal, this is my first time i read ur gazal, hope to read more in future
bold Posted on 12-Oct-03 12:01 AM

i am sorry i am new to ur gazal,actualy i was so busy in my world befor ,now i got a chance to go through,i really enjoy it
Arnico Posted on 12-Oct-03 07:56 AM

Let me join the crowd with my applause! Deepak ji, welcome!
Binay Posted on 12-Oct-03 08:11 AM

Nepeji, I have been following your writings with great interest since the debate you had with Paschim on "monarchy." Now it is nice to know you as Dipak.
czar Posted on 12-Oct-03 10:36 AM

My compliments to an accomplished thinker, poet and writer. Hats off to you, Sir, for the versatile and copious measures of talent that you possess. Talent that has been assidiously polished and honed to levels that allow you a rare way with words, be it poetry or political thought.

As you evolve to and explore higher levels of consciousness and garner yet keener insight into the human condition and spirit, we are priveleged to view glimpses of the vistas you percieve. I salute your abilities and, with other sajha nivasis, raise a toast to your success and remain in anticipation of being continually graced your creativity.
Dilasha Posted on 12-Oct-03 07:57 PM

Ditto!!
Bhunte Posted on 12-Oct-03 08:03 PM

rephrasing la hai

Nakoriyeka kesha dekhda rhidaya ka KABI jasta 2
Bhireko jholi dekhda jamana ka bidhyarthi NETA jasta 2
Ye hajurrrr Nepe hajurrr...
Ooha ta rahechha hamrai DR. Khadkha !
Nepe Posted on 13-Oct-03 11:49 AM

Gokul ji,

I have gotten glimpses of your grasp of Poorveeya and Paashchaatya classical philoshophies in number of your postings I have been reading in Sajha forum (since before I became a poster in Sajha !). Particularly your analogy to the integration and differentiation of calculus (for Hindu and Buddhist philosophy) and the debit and credit accounts (for Poorveeya and Christian philosophy) has moved me very seriously. I have never studied any religious scripture systematically as yet. So my knowledge, if any, is random accumulation of hearsay and second hand information. So naturally your remarks about my ghazal has made me feel immensely rewarded. To my close friends, I introduce myself as a spiritual naastik. I do not know if I have been accurate about myself, but, in any case, I feel I have learnt a great deal about art of living from these ancient scriptures. "Karmanyavaadhikaaraste&" is another favorite mantra I take inspiration from for doing things of importance. Of course I do have my own interpretation of what it says, but I think this is one of the greatest teachings on art of living.

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Jira ji,

The reference of byangabaaN was to your humor and satirical pieces. It was interesting to know I was no mystery to you. I too look at your baby pic and try to picture a grown up you, but I have not been able to discover you. Glad to realize that you too are contemplating to expose yourself.

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Bhunte ji,

You have been very kind to me. Gun lagaaunu bhayo, rin lagaaunu bhayo. Mero liability jhan badhaunu bhayo hajur le. Ehehe !

Yes, I have been a vidyarthi neta for some time, lost two elections of the Student Union, one in Ascol and the other in TC. My disillusionment with banpanthi parties started while I was still active in their organization. A decisive moment came when my party (Chautho Mahaadhiveshan) declared Deng Xiaoping's reforms as anti-revolution in China. The rest is history of my metamorphosis into a great believer in democracy and freedom.

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Bold ji,

Welcome to Sajha and thank you.

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Arnico ji,

Ehehe, your email did not go wasted, see ? I read your article in TKP. You have no idea how much thrilled I was to learn your vision, optimism, seriousness and concrete ideas about them. I am sure you have injected a fresh inspiration and optimism in minds of many readers who might have given up hope. I salute you, sir.

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Binay ji,

Good to know a friend following me since good old days. I hope I have been consistent in my stand and have not taken undue advantage of anonymity. Only you can verify them !

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Czar,
I will probably treasure your words for the rest of my life. I know I will have to work very hard and very sincerely to measure upto your kindest compliments. You put me in a life long mission now. This is a precious gift to me.

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Dilasha,

Same here. :-)
GP Posted on 14-Oct-03 08:33 AM

NePe sir,

It was not surprising to me others as much as its not surprising to peoples
who know GP and his side avatars.

Well, its good to know your face. Thats great part of this revealation.

GP
from Varginia, USA
DHANANJAYA Posted on 14-Oct-03 01:48 PM

Dr. Deepak,
I am new in Sajha so don't know much about you. From the views of all friends, you must be more than i can think about you.

My salute to this multi-talented personality!

Dhananjaya