| joshua |
Posted
on 24-Mar-04 08:55 AM
People call me "Tree".
I had dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U.
There's one gal who I love a lot but never dared to go after.
She didnt have a pretty face, or good figure, nor an outstanding charm.
She was just a very ordinary gal. liked her. I really liked her.
I liked her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility.
Reason for not going after her was because I felt somebody
So ordinary like her was not a good match for me.
I was also afraid that after we were together all the feelings would vanish.
I was also afraid other's gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my gal, she'd be mine ultimately
& I didn't have to give up everything just for her.
The last reason, made her accompanying me for 3 years.
She watched me chase other gals, and I have made her heart cry for 3 years.
She was a good actress and me a demanding director.
When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us.
She was embarrassed but smiled & said, "Go on!" before running off.
The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut.
I didn't want to know what caused her to cry.
Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something
& watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn't like her.
There was once when both of them quarreled.
I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel.
But I still sided my girlfriend.
I shouted at her & ignored her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend.
The next day, she was laughing & joking with me like nothing happened.
I know she was hurt but she didn't know deep down inside I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out.
Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her.
I told her about my break up.
Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together.
I knew who the guy was. His pursuit for her had been the talk of the School.
I didnt show her my heartache, just smiles & best wishes.
Once I reached home, I couldn't breath.
Tears rolled & I broke down.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man who didnt acknowledge her presence?
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp.
It said, "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit.
Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay......"
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