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Posted
on 11-Apr-04 02:39 PM
Dear beloved,
In such a short period, I have found you to be a warm, friendly man with a great sense of humor and enjoyment of life. You have been a great lover, filled my days with emotional, spiritual support even at times filled with anxiety.
I am afraid this might be the last gift I give to my beloved. I am sorry not all of my passion has a power to hold you tight forever. I shall break the strong bond we made together, and with it the craving of our love will be gone taking away pieces of our collected dreams, and our sense of hope for warm-bright days to sustain us. For days, I was aware that I was not being myself. I was quiet, uncharacteristically reserved, when you asked what was wrong with me, I dismissed my low spirits as simply being tired. Now, I must turn again to the old, unquiet darkness. I shall stray alone on the edge of silence, half afraid.
True that we have had held each other even in the worst situation, had curled up in a blanket to ward off the chill, had always found harmony to be in the lover’s arm and share the sunrises and sunsets of our life together. Even those sunrays seemed pale in the deepening gloom of our sentiments. You held me, stroked my hair, whispered promises of loyalty, and love but nothing has helped my mounting despair. Still there is an underlying tension deep at the cockles of the heart. When my eyes were moist and puffy, when dark circles from lack of sleep gave them hollow appearance, you gave me support; you were distraught at the disturbing sight of your forlorn lover. I have never been able to lessen your anxiety, but I am afraid if I try to talk then my last measure of control would crumble and emotions would shatter like fragile crystal. I am scared that even with your unconditional love, the scattered pieces could never be made complete. I have never questioned your devotion; however have always doubted about my own strength to pick up the pieces and bind them together again.
I want you to know that I love you, and will always keep you in my thoughts and prayers. There will always be a special place for you in my heart. I cannot promise that I will never ramble, but will always try to live by the value you taught me.
“ timi juna hou aakashai ma basa
jagmagaune tara chodi bhuima najhara
timilai suhaunna mero sansara.”
Do not make your life miserable due to absence of one of the many stars of your life, make yourself luminous amongst the glittering stars of your life. I wish you all the best.
Oohi
Hajurki kaamjor maya.
PS: since I had no other choice to get in hold of you, I chose it as a best option based upon your past association with this site.Hope you would know my identity.
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