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on 16-Apr-04 04:44 PM
WARNING (AMAUTER WRITER) BEFORE YOU READ: this is a fictional story of course wirtten by me :) and if its written by me then it should surely contain whole bunch of RED INKS, soo if you would like to read the story, could you kindly be lenient on me and judge..thank you very much in advance :P
Earth goes round and round 24 hrs a day, 364 days a year, and never stops for anything, and didn’t stop for me either. Once upon a time I did fall for a girl too, surely she wasn’t prettiest girl around but when I looked in her eyes her beauty use to amaze me. She looked like no other girl that had ever lived, felt like she was one of the greatest gift that god had presented to me.
When she talked to me felt like smooth lyrics was being sung by a beautiful voice that you can never miss to hear. Just staring at her would make me feel someone especial, someone to whom god had poured immense luck on. I use to love her with my heart, my soul and everything that I had. That was me. I was finally in love with someone, BUTT there was a huge problem. I had never expressed my feelings to her.
Days went by, didn’t have any courage to write such a letter, and never had written it, the feeling certainly wasn’t good about it either, but was somewhat depressing and painful. Everything that was happening to me was different, different from everything that I had ever felt before. So finally with some courage build up, I wrote her a letter, a letter which was real and expressed my emotions so badly like I never did before. Without thinking, without reading I mailed the letter to her. There it went, flew over valleys and settled on her house.
Next day there she was, she had read the letter, and then when I saw her THEN I realized what she would like me for?? I do not have any attractiveness, or any kind of attitude she would fall for. I then started cursing myself. I didn’t understand that only one person cannot love, love is a bond. Love is not lust, its not pain. Its happiness you can achieve without worrying or having any fear towards. Love is being able to be free, being able to be yourself, being able to dance and sing in front of her. That is love. If she doesn’t want me why would I want to be with her? That wasn’t love for me, that was pain and distrust towards myself I was carrying. (well yAH a little Hindi movie influence here :P)
Thought and thought but still the jealously and my likeness for her didn’t go away, it still lingered around for a while. We were friends for a while and I still I couldn’t take her just as a friend. But later it all became different, she found her BOY and I from then couldn’t do anything.(mora lai pittium jasto lageko thiyo, tara herdai kattro..darr nai lagyo) I also changed and time rolled as I moved it didn’t stop for me like it never does for anybody. Maybe it wasn’t meant to be, maybe is was a lesson for me, maybe life should be rolling like this…….and it continues to roll with lack of everything you can possibly imagine - money, love, honesty, trust etc ..etcc.. EVEN WITH ALL THIS…>> LIFE IS WONDERFUL AND WORLD IS A WONDERFUL PLACE :) ENJOOY
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