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| oys_chill |
Posted
on 15-Aug-02 03:25 PM
PATIENCE! PATIENCE! PATIENCE!
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I came to work beaten up in the NorthEast heat. The cool air in my cubicle gave me a ample respite for a while. It had been a long way from home....huna ta afu physics ko wiz hoina ..heat le hola..aaja bato nai atti laamo lageko!! ;)
Suddenly my eyes fluttered on a notice on my computer....it read "Oys, i am not going to be in today. Hope you can do the timecards." That's a piece of cake. I used to do timecards before..infact did for a year. I went to the *machine* and tried to log in to the database.....(dhet, k re esko password?? ) .....my mind raced through numerous possibilities.....nothing came close..."C'mon now Oys, you have a very keen memory" i tried to boost my lost morale. No, my mind was going blank...what's the god damn password...the last time i did timecard, less than a month ago....
I tried to give it a break..i still have the whole day to figure out.......Nyways, its not the end of the world (TILL TOMORROW MORNING AT LEAST!!)...i went back to doing what i did best......relive the past.......today was different...I couldn't think of anything rejoicing.....I only remember people with funny faces years ago telling me "don't worry everything is going to be fine" Those decade away voices seems like those of yesterday....i wanna retort to them "its only been like 15 years, things are only getting worse!!"
"Hey oys, how you doing today " ...lucifer comes online.
I explain my scenario..
"Lucifer, is it the shiva butik, rakshi, frustrations? what is it? am i getting old? does memory fade this fast?..i don't give him a chance to console me"
"hey maybe its the factors of qtr. life crisis"..he replied
suddenly I remember it, though i have lost it.......NO NO!!..i can't remember the password...i remember the email lucifer had sent me some months back..
"hey lucifer, do u still have it...?? i explain to him....
"you are in luck..on its way" .....They call it INFORMATION SUPERHIGHWAY..i wait impatiently...when it comes to me roaring avoiding all the traffic ( i presume) in seconds..
I open it ..excited for my mystery to be unfolded, though i have read it dozen times in the past..yet, i have a craving for it today..
IT READ:
"Age is irrelevent, are you on the same boat, are you going through quarter life crisis..so what is it?"
* It is when you stop going along with the crowd and start realizing that there are a lot of things about yourself that you didn't know and may or may not like.(like my memory?)
*You start feeling insecure and wonder where you will be in a year or two, but then get scared because you barely know where you are now.
*You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you have ever met and the people you have lost touch with are some of the most important ones.
*What you do not realize is that they are realizing that too and are not really cold or katty or mean or insincere, but that they are as confused as you.
*You look at your job. It is not even close to what you thought you would be doing or maybe you are looking for one and realizing that you are going to have to start at the bottom and are scared. (well mero job ta no complains so far :)
*You miss the comforts of college, schools, of groups, of socializing with the same people on a constant basis. But then you realize that maybe they weren't so great after all.
*You are insecure and then secure. You laugh and cry with the greatest force of your
life. You feel alone and scared and confused.(today i am :( wot's the password???)
*Suddenly change is the enemy and you try and cling on to the past with dear life but soon realize that the past is drifting further and further away and there is nothing to do but stay where you are or move forward.
*You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such damage to you or you lay in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone decent enough to get to know better.
You love someone but maybe love someone else too and cannot figure out why you are doing this because you are not a bad person.
*You go through the same emotions and questions over and over and talk with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a decision.
*You worry about loans and money and the future and making a life for yourself and while winning the race would be great, right now you'd just like to be a contender!
*What you may not realize is that everyone reading this relates to it. We are in our best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out.
OOOOOOOPS!! sorry hai fellas..while writing this..i remembered the password "CONTROL" how could i forget?? thanx to sajha.....i was refraining from posting it..but I like this crisis thing.......hope jazzi reads it too.......besides i went through such a mental ordeal.....
nways, if u read all this...hope u had nothing better to do ;)
chill oys
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| SITARA |
Posted
on 15-Aug-02 04:00 PM
To OYS.....
GRACIOUS!!!!!!! your "senior moment" was not so bad after all!!!!!!!! You sound so much more enlightened!!......Wiser, and none the worse for it either!....truly impressed (no sarcasm here...ni!)
And as for knowing:
HE Who knows not and knows not he knows not...is a FOOL; AVOID him
HE who knows not and knows he knows not....is IGNORANT; ENLIGHTEN him
HE who knows, and knows not he knows.......is ASLEEP; AWAKEN him
HE who knows and knows he knows............is WISE; FOLLOW him
....so pick your stage of metamorphosis!!!!!!...As for "change", that is the only permanant thing in this changing world....Re!
Nice writing!!!
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| oys_chill |
Posted
on 15-Aug-02 05:30 PM
I'd like to pick B...
(we used that answer with a theory in mind: when in doubt, pick B)
yup but i'd rather be ignorant.......ignorance is bliss after all!! the more you know, the more confused u get, the less you know, lesser the confusion ;)
nways thanx for yor posting and taking SO MUCH OF YOUR PRECIOUS TIME TO READ THIS ONE..truly impressed as well!!
oys
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| bolshevik |
Posted
on 15-Aug-02 07:08 PM
Statistically, the more choice B's you make, the better your chance of getting it right, over the long, though not immediately. Stick to it, you will do ok in life. Love and women ? I'd say the odds of winning the lotto are better !
Let the starlight illuminate that one !
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| jazzi |
Posted
on 15-Aug-02 10:32 PM
hey!oys_chill..though u deciphered,wht the life's meant for..,l you confused me...thats even worse,dont ask for my patience...I was trying to search for meaning the life's attached...with it.I'm upset cause i feel the world's against me....but..
waiting to see the world's fragnance thats never gona happen.
thanks ...oys_chill,somewht, i felt comfortable goign through the logos..u've jotted.i got to quest in detail.
thank god, Atleast, u got ur passord..
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| watever |
Posted
on 16-Aug-02 03:04 PM
I would choose C.... sleeping is probably one of the best things in the world ;)
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| Soleil |
Posted
on 16-Aug-02 06:12 PM
Oys bro..it's always good to read your lines. Thanks for keeping us entertained. As for the knowing and not knowing, here's something I would like to add:
When I knew and remembered everything I learned...they gave me the Intermediate Degree.
When I remembered half and forgot the rest...they gave me the Bachelor's Degree.
Now, I don't remember and forgot the whole thing I knew...I am awarded with the Master's Degree.
My question to you bro, do I have to go insane in order to earn a Phd degree?:) heheheh.
Keep chilling in the dark side of the moon. Peace:)
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| Junkie |
Posted
on 17-Aug-02 12:12 AM
Tell me about being in a state of quandary ...... one day I am A, then I quickly shift gears into Bs, Cs, and ignorantly into Ds ...... sala yo quadruple personality disorder lay maryo malai ......
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| Diva_Starz |
Posted
on 17-Aug-02 12:33 AM
Oys,
I think, i suffer from the cumulative effects of all what you mentioned to be quarter life crisis (given, 100% of my life is 80, but heck, who wants to live till that grumpy octagenarian age:)
Symptoms: I feel there is nothing in me except a void, bleak chasm, no soul, no strength...just marking time until the cold dark abyss of the grave ;)
But, on a second thought, I think i'm much better then the folks who did/doin' MS/PhD
(thanks Soleil), at least I am rememberin' half of what i'm fed...
Heard sea gulls are following the trawler..Perhaps, I am being one of those sea gulls knowingly..unknowingly..:P
Anyway, a nice article comfu..keep it up!
peace
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