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| oys_chill |
Posted
on 29-Sep-02 07:43 AM
Sakar sat on the wet rock, wondering ceaselessly at the waves splashing onto the rocks. The ocean always had a rippling effect on him. Besides these waves, he could not relate anything anymore in life. Everytime waves rushed to the shore, they brought memories from the past, and for some fleeting time, it would wash away all his current dilemmas far into the horizons. The waves today were raging with a different note bringing the subtleties of his past, he had never probed.
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Sakar called up Dinesh. “Oy, bholi jach cha! Kata cha mero notes”.
“Oh yaar Sorry! Her na hijo raati tanna gaako, tero notebook ta Dan ko gadi ma chadechu.”
“Ani Dan kata cha ta?” “He’s gone to NY , bholi matrai aaucha re, mero ta test barbad hune bhayo.” “Talai, responsibility bhaneko kei thaha cha?”
“sale, saku, jaile ni ta afno matrai sochas yaar, sun na....”
Sakar slammed the phone down. It was not the test he was worried about...
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“Sakar, timi sanga $250 jati cha” It was rabin dai. “kina chaiyo dai?” “hoina bhai, apatai paryo, Boston ma party cha, maile mero mastercard nai harayen, pheri bank pani parsi samma bandha, ma next paycheque aaune bittikai dinchu ni.”He sounded desperate “ la la huncha dai!”
A couple of weeks later, financial crisis was grasping Sakar. Despite knowing rabin dai, he called him up.
“Bro yaar! I really am in need of some cash.....”
“Hera bhai! Ek dui maina samma ma sanga paisa ko kura nagara. Mero situation timlai thaha cha ni. Ek dui maina kura na, paisa hoss, ani”
Sakar couldn’t say anything. It was not an excuse Rabin dai made, but it was excuse Sakar used to console himself. “ani sakar, aaja raati aauchau? Dinesh ko ma party cha, jhaap hunu parcha la!”
“Khoi ! sakar exclaimed. “heraun dai k huncha?” Sakar was actually validating Dinesh, whom he had called up earlier.
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Sakar was busy cooking. He knew he couldn’t make those mouth watering dishes, but something he could fill his stomach with. He had made enough, so that his roomie and niru baini could have too. Sakar hated eating alone. He couldn’t concentrate though.. The words of Chris had pierced through him.
“myan Sak, how can you not go home for five years. Don’t you love your parents? Common man! Don’t be so selfish!”
He was nostalgic, just this time it wasn’t for a very good reason. The ring of the phone ended his painful odyssey. It was his sister seven seas apart.
“Sakar! K ho.......yetro deen bhai sakyo! Euta email pani chaina? Talai mamu, daddy, didi kasaiko ni wasta chaina hai, ani kasto chas?”
“Thikai chu! Tyai ta ho usa ma dd......” (too much to earn and too much to learn)
“asti aama ko mukh herne deen! Taile kehi pathais mamu lai?
“dd, maile ta bhusukkai birsen”
“tyai ta kina samjhinthis ni afno family lai , tero shivani huda hudai! Herr sakar, maile talai katti bhani saken, shivani is playing with you. Serious na ho. Tini haroo ko santan nai thik chaina k. They are trying to take revenge, and they have found you as the scapegoat”
“dd, hyaa ! shivani is jus a good friend, who has high regard for me. Biha ta garchu bhanya chaina ni. Life ma eutai kt hola, who likes me for what i am, tapai afai bhannu na, tyasto manche bhetna kaum garho huncha”
“ ho ho khub! Dd lai shiksha dine bhais hai? Atti nai selfish chas ta. J sukai bhan, tara shivani chai hudaina. Maile bhandya chu. Didi le ni tyai bhanisya cha. Pachi talai problem huncha. Mom dad ko bare ni ta soch na ..”
Sakar didn’t wanna prolong the conversation. “La la didi, tara its nothing like that though. I havent seen her for five years now. So let future decide what it wants hunna?”
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He went back to the kitchen totally shattered. His roomie and niru were there.
“Myan this guy is soooo selfish” exclaimed his roomie. "He has only cooked the things he likes. Do you ever think about others”
“hahaha!” Niru exclaimed “Sakar dai ko ke kura garne aaba?” “U think he’ll be thinkin bout us?”
Sakar was not paying attention to these trivialities. His mind was racing against time thinking of shivani. The first day he had met her, and how sweet she looked. Despite, family boundaries, they had kept in touch. Even, when she enrolled in a school, devoid of emails and the net, she had kept sending him greetings on every occasion, even when he had not bothered to write a single line. How could he just let go of someone who loved him beyond reasons, for what Sakar was. He didn’t know anyone who loved him for what he was not.
But didi was true. He had to let go. He had to make amends with his family. He couldn’t break the entire bond with his family, for a person, whom he hadn’t seen for five years. Yup! He just couldn’t be so selfish.
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Sakar continued to watch the waves rush to the shore and succumbing to the sand. He pulled his pants up, and waded into the water to feel those warm waves. To his surprise, they were cold as they hit him, running right past him. A feeling of anguish evoked inside Sakar. The world saw him as a proud, selfish fiasco. All he tried was to keep everything integrated compromising his own dreams and desires.
He wanted to run into the waves and disappear forever into the depths of the ocean. He would do something he wanted this time, and he wouldn’t be a coward. Except his quest for an end would be to reprimand the shame of his living. He returned to the shore dejected. He looked back to the waves one more time, took out a dime from his pocket and hurled it as far as he could, wishing a horror for his next life .....
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| SOULFREE |
Posted
on 29-Sep-02 08:26 AM
hmmm... Sakar sounds just like me!! Mero story ta lekhya hoina hagi bro???
And Sivani... eeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!
Good one Comfs....!!!
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| SITARA |
Posted
on 29-Sep-02 04:11 PM
Oys ji;
Just one question, Shivani likes Sakar " beyond reason"....what about Sakar? Is is reciprocal???????? Or does he feel forced to return her affections? Come now..."love" has to be reciprocal...it cannot be forced. Also, is Sakar thinking of Shivani out of loneliness or out of love????? If it is former...it is need based (unhealthy) if it is latter...he should go for it!
Family and Parental love should be unconditional...that is the definition of parental love!
If families ostracize Sakar because he loves somebody...then it is selfish! Sakar should be allowed to choose his happiness...he has to spend the rest of his life with her for crying out loud!!!!!!!
Just a counselor's insight!:)
Nice job though OYS_ ji!
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| oys_chill |
Posted
on 29-Sep-02 04:47 PM
haha!
sitara ji, tyo ta sakar lai sodhnu parcha.........what does this empty oyster know??
on second thoughts....i have a big hunch that this soulfree must be SAKAR...he's giving us hints himself ;) soulfree bro, clear things out!
Chilled_oys
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| Poonte |
Posted
on 29-Sep-02 09:59 PM
Ahem! Pran bhanda pyaro bhai ko hidden talent!
BTW, I am sure a lot of young Nepali boys in US colleges can perhaps very well relate to Sakar's life, hai? Ke garnu, chitayeko sapana "sakar" huna gahro chha...
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| LCD |
Posted
on 30-Sep-02 11:11 AM
Comfy bhai,
Memory lane bata memory GULLY ma detour bhayeko ta thik cha tara tyesko final cut nagara, plssssssssssssssssssssssssssss........
BTW I think Sakar is also a LCD ( different LCD though). Saker is a Lowest Common Dinominator(LCD), which can be fraction of other numbers but it cannot be divisible by any other number. Likewise, saker is there to help everybody but there's nobody to share his pain or help him.....:s
Maybe there's saker inside all of us. He is inside soul bro, he's in me, maybe he's in you too comfy bhai.
peace,
LCD
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| illusions |
Posted
on 30-Sep-02 12:30 PM
what can i say oys.....u are my man.....if i could i would offer to be ur literary agent right now.........but sakar the character is too weak....notes ni exams najikai diye pachi ali follow up garnu parcha yaar....and robin dai lai chine pachi kina diyeko paisa????.....if his roomie and the niru girl treat him like that why be so nice to thema dn cook for them....hey adn if he loved shivanee which i find it hard to believe........why can't he stand up to his family which is like thousands of miles away....oys where did u find someone with such a weak character...someone who possibly couldn't stand up for himself adn thus ends up on the sea shore feeling the waves and taking away what would probably give him more happiness than he can give himself.....which is all but misery....all the best to the sakars of the world...i gotta figth ma battles.....alone mostly.....illusions:-)..(ey oys guess who this is)
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| SITARA |
Posted
on 30-Sep-02 06:23 PM
For Sakar...
"Get up! stand up! stand up for yourself!!!!!"
Illusions ji...........
Nice character analysis!!!!! We choose our own miseries many of the times! Sakar...man come on get a grip on yourself and reality! You need to make decisions...no one is going to solve things for you!!!!!!!!!!! Life is what you make of it!
whew!!!!!!!!! I hope that helped Sakar.....sorry I came across a tad bit too strong! :)
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| SOULFREE |
Posted
on 01-Oct-02 05:36 AM
On the second thought, May be Sakar is a person who is physically living in Kalyug, and mentally stuck to "dharamyug". Dharamyug taught about unselfishness and virtue. Krishna's unselfish friendship towards Sudhama, Ram's unconditional "Banbaas", Raja Harishchandra, sacrifice of Vishma -- they all remain in Grand mother and great grandmother's "bed time stories".
We are taught not to be selfish all our childhood. School punished us for telling lies. Parents punished us for amorality. Good friends were vanished for our being selfish... And, when we were finally molded to be unselfish, righteous -- we stepped into the reality -- and we found the world was very much different than our grand mother's fairy tale. A person who tried to help a friend was considered dumb -- Who believed in lies of the friend was weak -- who was being used by a friend was an a$$ -- Standing against the family was heroic. Had my DEAD great grandmother heard about it, She would have died again.
Sakar was a classic example of a person who lived in misery to give pleasure and happiness to others. The worst thing was that he didn't know he was being used by those people who beg-borrow-steal to stay strong. If you really wanna get successful, you gotta be a liar, selfish and a cheater -- and may be thats the ROAD Sakar has not chosen to take unless he goes through big time brain-wash.
Can you believe, -- to impress a girl, or to get hooked up, one has to start with lies?
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| Deep |
Posted
on 01-Oct-02 09:44 AM
Oys,
Shivani rey.....la bhayena.....yasari kotardina ta bhayena ni.....
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| watever |
Posted
on 01-Oct-02 07:00 PM
who is illusions I like his/her style already.... :D... though I dont very strongly support illusions there is a point there somewhere... ummmm oys maybe you should look... sakar lai pani tell the same thing... ali ali ankha kholera here bhane k tha sakar ko sapana haaru pani sakar bhai halchha ki :)... I know I know the WORLD wont understand... no body will :P!! anyways i hope sakar atleast learns how to swim...spending so much time near the ocean! :)
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| illusions |
Posted
on 06-Oct-02 01:44 AM
after i wrote that post i thought there'd be quite a few pissed bros but am glad some agree that this is is kalyug or whatever u wanna call it as soulfree put it and well u gotta lie and do whatever to put ur interests up front, adn ur interests don't always have to be selfish stuff. its just that, as i said there are battles to be fought in life,and if u ain't up to it u are out. and specially for all ya guys out there in US, its erally tough as oys tells me, so hang in there all of ya............WHATEVER.....i am all illusions and illusions aren't male or female.
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