We were sitting in the car
And I told him to stop
As the car came to a halt
In my throat was a knot

"We have to break up"
I said with a frown
He just stared at me
Then he looked down

He picked up a paper and pen
And scribbled something on it
Not paying attention to me
God I feel like shit

He folded up the paper
Then handed it to me
Still holding back the tears
"Read it later" he said calmly

He started up the car again
And we were on our way
Why did it have to end like this
Did it really have to be today

I shoved the paper in my pocket
As we crossed the rail road track
Then we stopped at my house
I got out without turning back

I took long heavy steps
Because I'm nothing but trash
Then something grabbed my attention
When behind me was a huge crash

I turned around to see my nightmare
I recognized the car instantly
A train and a car were coiled together
From there, everything got so blurry

Figures running and screaming
"Oh my god, call the ambulance!!!"
Although I already knew he was dead
My life truly is unfair

I just couldn't accept it
The pain I have inside
A million knives went through my heart
And the pain I could not hide

I remember the note he handed me
I read it and began to cry
It said in four simple words
"Without you, I'd die"

I am doing research palpali daju. ;)

Chittai market ma aucha. It's being tried and tested. I am going thru double checking the system. Once the research is complete. You are up for the sample piece in my list.

It's a 24 hrs process... back to work! ;)
hehe

IndisGuise:)

P.s: But am in quagmire. . . whether to go for the one that DEALS with the aftermath, OR, for the one which will prevent the calamity beforehand. A Crossroad. . .

Kahan Pain ko paachi lageko!!!......
Aafulai pain badhi bhyera maarna laagisko, kehi gain nai hundaina...haha...:D
I thought...MORE PAIN MORE GAIN...hehe
Baaru tyo Eternal sunshine jasto memory erase chha ki katai smundra paari tira PG....Khojum na Khojum...:D

Indi bro,

Does that insurance includes frequent visit to stripclubs during a time of break ups?? HEHEHE

Peace out

Without you
I become a two month fetus in a bleeding womb;
A hundred year old gasping her last breath;
An animal tied to the tracks when the trains come.

Without you
I become a newborn child with no breath of life;
A caterpillar being devoured by a crow;
A spilled glass of water on a sheet of ice.

How can I embroider my silver threads
Into the fragile, delicately woven fabric
Of your spirit, so that you truly comprehend
How deeply I love you?

I will always love you, always.
Without you, I fill with terror;
Without you, I fade into night;
Without you, loneliness eats me alive, bite by bite.

-rosemary

la ta, indi dai, i am a willing guinea pig for your experiment....and i don't need visits to strip clubs- but one to nepal would be most welcome! :)

ani nirman-ji, maile khoji rahechhu....

actually, now that i think about, this "heart insurance" is kind of like a pre-nuptual agreement! hatterika....the amrikan capitalist system beat you to it, indi! so, perhaps you should pursue the insurance policies that deal with "preventing the calamity beforehand". just a thought....

ani m-rose, sadly, you do make sense and i know exactly what you mean....

Highfly bro,

In my research I have chosen to call it, " Holy abode," a sojourn, a temple, if you will. ;)
Hahahahaha............. got to a lil professional... know-what-i-mean!

Yep, there is aprovision for that, but if you only take the liability, some dvds will be delivered in mail packages. you-know-how it works ni hoina bro? hahahaha

For our sanity, peace of mind, and happiness in general. . .:)

But for some reason, I have not visited any holy abods... weird eh'?

IndisGuise;)

"preventing the calamity beforehand" it is palpali daju.

Pre-nup only covers what's on paper palpali daju, I am talking more intrinsic aspect of it. The intangibles hehehee. ;)

Stay tuned. it's work in progress...

Tara ahile chai lunch ma janchu hai ta ;)

IndisGuise:)

I wanted one more look,
one last look into those eyes.
To see your face one last time,
Memories displayed,
flooding to me from within.
Familiar touch of the hand,
started me to cry emptyness again.
One touch of your hand,
To hold you one last time,
Five seconds of redemption,
to see what I've lost once again.
I'll love you always knowing within,
without you my life wont begin.
So come close now and listen close,
Sorries cried out in lost words of remourse

badarnikt,
r u sure .. dyamnnnnnn..........
i did not know u were longing that much (o:
wish u all the best ......

[ do not cry over spilled milk though]

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once again
what do i know (o:

THAPAP Ji!

Thank you much for wishes. well truth is i never have cryed for my love yet.I am just trying to write something that all.

I'll love you always knowing within,
without you my life wont begin.....nice one, Keep writing !!!

Nice one BadarniKT ...keep writing
:)

Oh oh.. can I post one too??

You'd think I would lose my soul,
Be totally lost as if in a black hole.
My heart swooning with your memory,
Reaching out to the darkness blindly!
You broke my heart, I cant deny,
And it did hurt I must confide.
But gone are the days and the feelings,
'Without you' I deny to be a mere weakling.
Of course you were a part of me,
Instead of 'I', it was a 'WE'.
But you chose your life and your way,
Why then should I remember you everyday?
My last word to you is "goodbye",
May you go on with your life as I go on with mine!!

Hmmm .... good decision.
Rhythm ...Nice Poem
:)

.... But you chose your life and your way,
Why then should I remember you everyday?
My last word to you is "goodbye",
May you go on with your life as I go on with mine!! ...
Goodbye indeed...:)
Balla Alchhi huna chhodyo..:D
Aaru ni lekhum lekhum..:)

Nirman jyu,
I am just trying to abide to your wishes and order. What is a mere girl like me in front of such a great personality like you. Forgive me for saying so but it seems to me like I am not the only lazy one here. Havent really seen a lot of your writings nowadays either. Correct me if I am wrong for I do not want to offend you in anyway. I shall always be your follower and am waiting eagerly for your next command.

Yours truly,
Rythm ;)

Rythm jyu,
Offend re...hehe....Great Personality bhanda ta Mero naak fulera jhandai jhareko..Dhanna Jharena..Jahreko bhye Offended hunthen..:P...
For the time being, I m hibernating for good...If I write now, I will be writing most weird stuffs...So Sajhabasilai maya garera nalekheko..:D...
I m enjoying my ride a inqusitive reader these days, In reading I find the joy(...But not the course books..:D..)...Maybe, Someday soon I will be writing again..And I command now u to write more for now...:D
Hope to read more from ur side soon...
Keep writing...:)
Urs truly,
Nirman~*...;)

Actually, Where is Badarnikti also these days....Alchhi bhyeko jasto chha..Lu Badarnijyu..hajur ni lekhna thalnus chhit chhito...:)
Aali Birahi bhawana kaam bhyeko lekhnu hai...:)

Where do you go when you're lonely
Where do you go when you're blue
Where do you go when you're lonely, I'll follow you
When the stars go blue

lau, badarni, welcome back! good to see you writing again! :)
and rythm, thank you for writing- the part nirman highlighted was fantastic!

.................
i moved out of my apartment on monday.
my life in boxes.
and in those boxes, memories of you....
as i cleaned under the bed, i found a bobbypin you wore in your hair.
and with the sight of that, the memories came rushing back with the intensity of a california wildfire.
and i envied that bobbypin, as it was once something that belonged to you.
there was a time when i thought i too was yours.
but there you are, thousands and thousands of miles away.
immersing yourself in a new world, living a new life, speaking a new language.
and your emails speak nothing of us.
why is it that the more i remember....
the more you seem to forget?