hope it doesnt affect me too much..weather does get into our head and affects our mood doesnt it?(and doesnt matter if u say NO!its just ones own opinion!!;oP)
other than that..oh oh! read a bit more about the zipper today! wahahaha..i had heard quite some ages ago..there was like a few companies that makes the zip(the famous one would be YKK..have u checked ur zips?hehe until now i havent seen any other brand if u ask me) so to make sure(curiosity!!and boredom!;oP hehe)..went to wikipedia..and yeah seems quite a few more than i thot(heard)..and how the hell did i get the idea of reading up on such a thing as a zip?
there i was tryn to fix my zip(slider had slipped off my fav shorts :oS) and that too cos i was lucky enuf to notice that shorts of mine and remember about its zip haha..how much time did i spend on that? 30mins? might be more..and i shudnt have tested it out by pulling the puller, once i managed to place the slider onto the spiral width(haha im using the terms from the wikipedia! http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Zipperit makes it so much easier to explain with the right terms!;oP hehe)
ok enuf of that..better go get ready(not really ready ..but at least put some pants and shoes?:oD)..going to a gig after ages!!!(2 yrs or more i think)..and fren shud be boarding the bus soon and well the gig is gonna start at 7pm and the main act(that im goin for) shud be on around 8-9..but yeah! at last!!!once again i am gonna be soaking the atmosphere of a live performance!!:oD esp to the type of music im inclined to :oD..never was into to discos/clubs(cant dance even if my lived depended on it wahahah ;oP)...hmm dun think i will be jumping or hopping or skankin in the moshpit nor body surfing(as tho anyone with sense would wanna try lifting me up?wahahah ;oP ) but well this will def help me soothe a bit of frustration for freakn missing the band that i really loved!yeah loved!! a one sided affair? but still i love that band! ..plus 2 members of that band that i love will be playin in this band so that does help a bit?:oD
oh this band only plays covers! so i gues anyone who loves fast paced(cant remember them slowing down any originals hehe) ..hyper..life-energy giving music..and of cos loves their sense of humour..def will love enjoying their live performance?:oD..its a punk band btw!yeah yeah noise to ur ears! music to mine!:oD and yeah havent felt excited for ages :oD...plus not gettn any younger aint i?funny how i say and do think that age does not matter..but in situations where one stands out omnivorously
anyways outta here(tho i wanna type on and on about bands..musics.and wat not :oD)..and plus have to choose the most unwanted tee of mine..cos well gotta be prepared? the last time i wore this tee which i really loved(love does never last forever does it?not physically anyways? as in gettn to touch?:oS ;oP) darn! it was ripped off!! only found out after the show :oS..quite some few ppl had been eyeing/askn for it...ughh...evul eyes!!!:@ ;oP hehe..
and darn do i bloody carry an umbrella? its walkn distance(20mins or there so from my place) but its quite a heavy drizzle!
anyways.....good day!enuf of blabbering for today and maybe for a while :oD hehe
oh yeah here is the song..the cover that i was listening to while typing the "title"
Stand by your man - Me first and the gimme gimme
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1st thing 1st...thot i reply to the prev comments here..cos i want to!cos i feel like it!which doesnt always happen?i like to think its not a daily occurence!;oP hehe
Angeleyes: excuses and me goes hand in hand ni...err maybe they are the hands and while im errr feet?(bad..very bad example!hehe) well just wanna say, without one..it seems weird ni..i mean isnt a normal body supposed to have 2 hands..2 feet? so if i stop giving excuses..i will just have a lost a big part of me?watever?haha ;oP
hope alls well with u..havent seen u around for a while here in sajha..but guess ur angelic eyes still is watchin!thats all that matters?:oD
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avi: me an object? :o( oh well that does show i exist?so alls good..but wat i dun get is ..how can i be a UWO when u IDENTIFIED me! most ppl stil dun get it or doesnt admit the psycho-ness part of me! but see u identified that part about me so fast!im lost for words..i mean i never think anyone can understand me(not even myself haha ;oP) so awww...do u?do u?;oP hehe..catch up real soon!:oD
------ MrIncubus977! darn..i never been complimented this much(well i take it as a compliment ;oP hehe)..so cheers for that..i mean goin thru the hassle of writing that much few times after u lost ur prev typings..and the effort of even registering to comment?
speechless i tell u!:oD..and wat u mentioned esp ur perception, they kinda told me smthings that i do think about time to time..and somethings that i had never thot of..not much anyways..frens cant stop telln me i think too much..i actually feel i think too little esp these days :oS ;oP hehe..so cheers for everything again :oD..and about spelling and grammar..look at mine? have i ever asked for forgiveness for those?so wat makes u think i got the right to care about such inconsequential stuffs about others?hehe well good spelling and good grammar helps a lot in communication and looks impressive but in the end isnt languages about tryn to communicate? we cant be great in all, i reckon ur nepali is def up there(def in a higher plane than i can ever dream of being in ;oP hehe) ..look at mine..both quite low!:oD hehe..anyways i will stop here hehe..
and there was a lot of times this week where it was so true about "everybody feels like we deserve a lot more than what we have" hehe..i got some results..satisfactory esp thinkn about how many datelines i missed and some which i didnt submit at all but was i happy?no! well am ok with it..but def not satisfied!;oP hehe...plus a lot of other things :oD
pls do keep sharing ur opinions..like u mention(tho u put it as "accept") who knows if they just might help another to understand themselves and thus understand another person too? and oh i have an opinion on this too..smtimes i do feel..if we try to understand/accept another person..we just might start to understand/accept ourselves too :oD..well we might get "lost" if we try too hard to put ourselves in others shoes(we forget about our own shoes?;oP hehe) but isnt that a tad bit better than being too comfy with our own shoes and not wanting to try on puttn ourselves on others shoes? its a matter of opinions hoina? gettn a balance would be the best..but achieving that? good luck to those who tries!:oD
ok this is making feel a bit guilty ...have to write some emails to frens which i havent done for a while(and no idea when i will do so :oS..did try the past few days..never finished them..no it wasnt that long!and dun plan to make it long!if its long..it just happened!!!;oP hehe)..so outta here...happy weeknd! and if i had pinochio's nose right now..mine would have reached the stars i tell u!;oP hehe
******************************* well thats how i felt(referring to wat i typed for the "topic") when i let myself get out of the living room, sat on the chair in front of the porch and let myself type(which im doin right now hehe)...tho was apprehensive of lettn myself do this since there will be ppl walkn past and seeing one weirdo sittin on the front and most prob catchn him grin while he is typing and wat not..well wat can i say? tho i admit i might be a weirdo..i prefer not to realize that..truth hurts doesnt it?;oP hehe..
--(some meanderings ;oP hehe)------------------ oh well..i guess wat im doing now is just one of the many small steps i try to take, to get out of my shell(haha just had a thot wat my frens will say about me making a "shell" joke about myself..you see i got a nickname which def is stuck for life, they still call me that urghh :oS hehe [im sure u can guess it at right on ur 1st try but theres no prizes for that so dun even bother tryn!;oP hehe] and still do make the same/similar lame "heard for the millionth times" joke and still crack up! haha..well i find it funny now..its nice to laugh at oneself and at situations? but when they say it esp when one aint in a real nice mood and feels so disparaging..urghh..i just hope during those times its just me being a bit overly sensitive and not them belittling another person..i really dun get it why must be depreciate another person? wats so fun about it? if it makes us feel better, doesnt just that show us how lowly we ourselves are that we have to bring/push another person to a lower level than us? the things we humans are made of, the things we do both consciously and subconsciously and the things we feel urghh..cant understand them all and yet..
oops i wat am i typing? esp when there aint any absolute answers on such stuffs, on us humans? hehe..the way i like to look at it,(esp right now, opinions might change the next moment hoina?;oP hehe) we (the human species) exist(now) and chances are we might not in the future, but that will we will see in time(if we still do exist ;oP hehe)..wat was the saying, dwelling on the past might make us miss the good things that is currently right in front of us, that we might get in the future? and thinkn too much about the future too might make u miss out on the present?ahh life and its complication eh?the more we think the more complicating it gets? why do we think at all!!!bloody hell!but then again do we like the thot about being a someone/something that cant (and has no capacity to) think? haha
back to the topic on "ahh..this is life" hehe ----------------------- its such a beautiful day too! the rain has stopped..its cool outside, a bit cloudy too but its bright and feels full of optimism(well i do hehe)..is it just me or do we just seem to ooze with optimism after the rain stops and the sun starts to peek out and shine on us, giving us the warmth and the shine that we missed in the cold cold rain? and it aint burning right now..
its evening, 7.10pm already! dyam i love this long daylight!!!:oD oh this reminds me..bloody mossies! how could i forget ur appearance frequency increases when summer arrives!!! i just killed one! im a murderer!:oS well wat can i say in my defence? it was instantaneous reaction! before i knew it, my two hands swung, a clap was heard and the i opened up palms, one dead mossie dropped and drifted away. alas! it hadnt tasted any blood today! theres no blood in my palms..well i just like the idea that a living thing got to eat its fill before its demise (hopefully that doesnt mean u have to kill another living thing..if wants to eat smthing that is already dead, thats fine with me!:oD but to kill before it dies..oh well wat will it make it? smthing like a suicide bomber?;oP hehe)..well anyways this shows that the culprit is still buzzing around..the one(s) that has been suckn my blood cos now im feeln the itch on my legs!!!u poor wronged mossie, just cos u were at the wrong place/zone(flying right in front of my face hehe) at the wrong time, you paid for ur acquaintances deeds. i will try to correct this wrong!you have my word!! haha..enuf ..darn! i wanted to type about smthing else..and im drifting again :oS
*picks up the mineral bottle and takes a few gulp of fresh refreshing water* hehe
yeah i was prepared for this u see hehe..oh the sky has cleared up more(i love watchin the sky and the clouds..and if i could i guess i would gaze upon it for hrs and hrs while daydreaming hehe)..its gettn more beautiful!! and the breeze is gettn blowing more strongly but too stong to give u a chill hehe..ahh!!:oD
ok the landlady ------meandering! again *sigh* :oS hehe--------- (me and my housemates have some bad vibes with her currently hehe..we have to move out in a mths time, not cos we are bad tenants..we aint perfect but not that bad too!am i being defensive?;oP hehe ..her neice is moving in so yeah as they say..blood is thicker than water?;oP hehe....just that i dun like it when someone tries to take too much adv of another, esp take take take![does it remind me of myself?;oP haha] and well thats wat she is doing, but cant blame her..anyone in her position would do the same? esp when its regarding money..money and how it changes and affects ppl? plus who are we to her? just some money paying tenants :oD...but still it would have been so great if she could empathize with us..but as i said why am i whining when i do feel we shudnt expect from others(as in keep the expectations down)..if we expect anything esp from others..we shud expect that from ourselves? cos expectations does bring frustrations esp when they are not reached? and frustrations shudnt be blamed on others.but ourselves? easy to say eh? oh well not like i dun admit im a huge hypocrite!(too huge to measure even for the richter scale? is that the biggest scale out there? if there is smthing else bigger..well im sure even that would be inadequate for my hypocrisy..and im understating it when im sayn all these!;oP hehe) ...how many times have we known wat might be the right thing to do, but find it so hard to do and end up doing smthing totally polar to it?hehe
oops... -------------------- and her partner is back urghh..darn! it was such a good feeln to be home alone..when my fren left for meet some of his other frens(whom i do not know) and since in my current state i def was going to decline going out(just had woken up hehe..im not the type to let myself doze off in the afternoon, i find it such a waste!:oD but seems like i did need to get some sleep as body doesnt lie? i dozed off on the couch the moment my fren played "ocean 13" on the dvd..i cant remember anything about it than those few rough fragments of the intro haha)
darn..got only 18mins of batt left, i better finish this up...sun is settn down too, its gettn darker urghh..so much things are coming up on my mind right now..things that i had wanted to type in the 1st place if it wasnt it for me and my drifting :oS..but who am i kiddn..thats one part of me that makes me who i am(watever i am?;oP hehe) ..and me being the narcissist i am..of cos i do love that(this) part about me, watever others(esp my frens tells/lectures) me!:oD..dun they get it, i know they care! but pls stop the lecturing! i mean do u want me to get started?u have seen those glimpse of me when i started lecturing havent u? those never ending nonsense..scary wasnt it? so pls pls pls!dun make me start cos when u all do, smtimes i just feel like i shud too!;oP hehe
anyways coming back to drifting..i think i wrote regarding about this sometime ago(tho never posted hehe..well not posting makes me think im gettn better in self control..plus it seems like if others dun see it, they might start believing a bit that im gettn "better", but if only they were to know?haha) ..its smthing that i always ponder about..well the current me does(who knows for the future eh? when i reach a milestone whenever it comes, watever i might be. i cud change drastically, like u might too? well i just like to keep my mind open to options and ideas/opinions even tho i might sound too stubborn a git(which i admit i am!hehe) to be actually doin that.. well i like to believe im open to ideas/opinions so dun mind my really strong sounding opinions(which might come off more as statements than opinions :oS)..but im sure u(if u know me ;oP hehe) have seen i always seem to "argue" or have a diff opinion to urs..but u know wat? i might actually sway more to ur opinions. its just that i seem to automatically have a opposite opinion appearing on my head when u mention urs..so i share it to "see" if u can explain to me, i mean if u have a stong opinion on smthing, u do have spent some time thinkn about others too to come to a conclusion on one? plus u shud see the many times i end up declining and saying "no" (sayn smting opposite) without even thinkin urghh it has really become an instantaneous natural response i tell u!..like those times someone asks me , "do you want to to eat" and tho im starving , i end up saying "nah, i eat a bit later" and the moment i say it.. i start thinkn..wats wrong with me!!!im bloody hungry! and of cos its a bit embarrassing to suddenly say i will eat too...dun wanna them to think im too weird..so i try to tolerate but smtimes my body gives it away..esp when the stomach growls so loudly haha :oS..
arghhh!! wat am i typing! im in a rush!!( was too groggy earlier to go out, esp after the afternoon nap, but stayin cooped too much is not a good thing? esp during the weeknds when i get a bit more time to rest and do my own things? i love the weeknds!:oD does weeknds love me?hehe) never liked being rushed tho do grin about it when i have a bit of time to reflect that current state of being hehe(haha does this makes sense? i do seem to eat a lot of words!and pretty bad in expressing myself :oS)..well i find it funny seeing it happening again and again...those things that does happen that we least want it to happen? hehe..but thats life?hehe would we be able to appreciate and treasure it or be filled with joy if everything that happened was to our liking and whims? hehe...
hope i can type smthing more clearer(dreaming ain i?;oP hehe) and less drifting sooner than later..for now..have a good weeknd!!:oD...
good day!:oD
and heres a song playing on my mind(which i played repeatedly while i was typing hehe)
Bob Evans - Don't You Think It's Time
*gone before someone arrives and lectures me, in a not so good tone, that im still typing?!wahahaha..was multitaskn and not just typing..u know daydreaming..watchn the clouds pass by..ppl walk by..some turned their head to see wat i was doing, others just carried on walkn lost in their thoughts or things they were doing, cars whizzed by..many colours..diff types..seriously i dun wanna stop typing right now do i?wahahaha ;oP hopefully i can type more of wat i really want to next time..u know, i do try!but my inadequacy stops me?:oS :oD hehe*
Me being me, I have no idea what I am going to type here. Im in the living room "away" from the music(in the kitchen, does anyone know what I am talking about when I say "shophouse"?semi-detached? Thats the place Im staying in, its design is narrow and elongated.One of the best, if not the best, place among all the places I have stayed here in Aus.) They are kinda making a ruckus haha.. in the kitchen, one housemate, one ex housemate and 2 of their frens with the ipod playing in a speaker. singing/shouting alongto the songs and them stomping to the songs. There are 2 more of my close mates(and housemates too) sitting there, having their drinks and encouraging the other 3 and yeah i got tired so here i am!:oD
It was pretty nostalgic hearing some "oldies", u remember those dance tracks, scatman? the discovery channel song? hehe You and me baby, we are nothing but mammals so lets do it like they do in the discovery channel? haha provocative? hehe well the lyrics goes smthing like that.. they are now singing along to the "wonderwall" by oasis haha... influence of alcohol? yeah i reckon so! I might be doing the same if i had drank more, more than my limit? hehe but its nice to see they know their latin(i think its spanish) songs too. one is french, two are italian and one is mexican. Languages does interest me, wouldnt it interest anyone who wants to be better in communication?
Anyways gonna be closing the curtain for another day that is done and gone. Well the day has already gone and a new day. monday has arrived(since its 12.21am now..i just checked the time) but to me it will be considered gone when I lay down on the bed and close my eyes :oD..but yeah another day where I felt frustrations, joy, ecstasy, nervousness, apprehensiveness and so many things. Feels like it has been a long day right now, but its done!
And i better get out of here. Enough of reflecting hehe and when was I ever able to really express myself without being scared of offending another person or tryn to not sound too insane? ;oP hehe.. Well Im not scared of the fact that I really might be insane(since most, especially my close frens consider me a bit diff, esp to grow up etc. Got to take close frens opinions a bit seriously dont i? Especially if its regarding about myself? They see in me what I might never have been able to notice about myself?) hmm maybe I am scared to discover the truth esp regarding the insanity part?hehe..
oh this song they just played sounded pretty nice... Opus - Live Is Life
and now they are playing the "forever young" song hehe... forever young...i wanna be forever young.. do you really wanna live forever? forever young..I wanna be forever young?
they just edited it a bit.. forever frens...I wanna be forever frens.. do you really wanna live forever... forever frens? hehe
dont we all?
anyways need to get some adequate sleep. Have left only 5 hrs of sleep left.. have a good one all! and well hopefully I will be able to type soon, and be a bit better in opening up ;oP hehe...well its nice to see ppl open up but isnt it a better feeln to be able to open up?
i just remembered another song from back then but wont post it for everyones sake ;oP hehe..no idea of the lyrics( I might have tried to check out the meaning back then, no wonder i still feel smthing when i listen to it esp at this kinda hr?)..some frens of mine found it kinda funny that I could relate to some songs that they found to be absurd...but wouldnt there be others who will find some of the songs they love totally shitty and meaningless?
Seriously, when will we start accepting someone else whos a bit different from us? Well im talkin about those who doesnt try to accept others who are different from themselves. If you do not fall into this category, Cheers!:oD Wasnt the saying, "What we cannot understand, cannot hurt us"? guess in another way, wat we dont understand, scares us? Is there a saying like this? could be? should be? must be!hehe ..Ah being human! We must know all dont we?
but im a creep! im a weirdo.. wat the hell am i doing here?(existing?) i dont belong here(cos you all make me feel so?;oP hehe ..ok not all of u ;oP hehe)
anyways...i exist since i type? hehe
goodnight!and good luck :oD
*gone not cos sleep is beckoning but cos i was feeln kind and thot i spare u all more bs ;oP hehe*
doesnt take no rocket scientist to figure out does it?)gotta wake up in 5 hrs time and countn down for my part-time job..wat bad timing my replacement who could always make it until today(never take things for granted eh?)..cant make it!!!so i cant skip it!!!plus i shud appreciate i have some work right now..cos seeing/hearing so many other fellow nepalese here not gettn any jobs and having a hard time(being a bummer is the worst feeln!)..urghh pretty depressing :oS and it feels worse when they ask u for help to let them know if u can get them any jobs..and u cant :oS
enuf of bullshitting!!
*mental note!dun think too much again! try not to!*
as peter russell used to say when he mimicked a chinese guy..."be a man!do the right thing!" hehe...
good day!
asta la vista!baby!(this arnie line is a great ender aint it?hehe)
*gone*
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