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Stunning! That’s how you are;
you give me sensations-weird and bizarre.
You are sour, you are sweet;
you are someone, I accidentally fell in love with!

You don’t look forward to leave me;
you don’t even lie down, before I pass out to sleep.
You are the cure for diseases, just too many;
insomnia, depression, or ya’all name any!

Without you, I feel so numb;
with you around, I get goose bumps.
A magician and a charmer;
no one but you, can make this heart warmer!

How could I be missing?
On something so divine and soothing.
True that-To find some, we gotta lose ‘THE ONE’;
you hug me, you touch me, you caress me all night long!

Now that I’ve found you;
you love me and I think, I do too.
You are frenzy, strong and funny, LOL;
Yes, you are my new found love – My Bottle of Alcohol!!!

   [ posted by sun_shine @ 11:30 PM ] | Viewed: 1916 times [ Feedback]

Do you know how it feels,
to have loved someone more than yourself,
to have lived for HIM and HIS and not for yourself,
to have been there for him forever,
to have lost HIM in the month of December?

Do you know how it feels,
to have pretended to be free,
when there's an exam in an hour or three?
To have loved to wake up after an hours' z,
just to talk to him and give him company?

Do you know how it feels,
to have hurt when he ached,
to have loved when he faked,
to have shared his pain as yours,
to be holding on to NOTHING, as if it cures?

Do you know how it feels,
to be a lonestar, whose light means nix to the one it shines for?
To be on a marooned boat, waiting on him to be back with the oar?
To be living in utopia, that instantaneously dies,
to be an orchid, too precious for others, but not pretty enough in his eyes?

Do you know how it feels,
to have scorned the best of friends,
to be living alone in a world so strange!
To wake up during midnight to realize he's gone,
to be sulking sole, when he has moved on?

Do you know how it feels,
to be haunted by memories in your sleep,
to be mocked by your dream and your own belief?
To have sowed one seed, to be reaped by someone else,
to stare and stand helpless, when your own train derails?

Do you know how it feels,
when there's someone running constantly in your head,
when all you see is 'him', you are blindfolded,
when all he has is sympathy, and not love,
when all you want, is a lill amour from the above?

Do you know how it feels,
to have been stabbed by your own,
to be harassed by the silence of your phone?
To forget what you just did, to forget you did not eat;
to see 'Goodbye' emails, even in your dream,
do you know how it feels, to have lost not just love, but everything??

   [ posted by sun_shine @ 11:02 PM ] | Viewed: 2810 times [ Feedback] (1 Comment)

He’s been my source of inspiration
He’s been my reason to smile
He’s been my destination
He’s been my pathfinder from a distant mile!

Yes, I was in love with him
But yeah, he was there, too.
Our feelings were eternal
Our bond was beyond that of a year or two!

What happened was not in our hand,
It wasn’t thought nor planned
Devastated and ruined, I m
It’s heart-wrenching to stare at a door that’s slammed!

I know it wasn’t fair on my part
But, I still won’t complain.
What he was all these years.
I shall cherish, abide and the love shall remain!

And it’s New Year’s Eve tonight,
Had fate not overturned, I’ld be there holding him tight;
So what we are not together, but still a team,
Excuse my adamant, I m sorry – I can’t hate him!!!

   [ posted by sun_shine @ 01:32 PM ] | Viewed: 1300 times [ Feedback] (1 Comment)

The first Christmas without you babe
was a day to forget and a night to hate.
Yes, there it was and I could see it all -
the trees, the lights, happy faces and the snowfall.
I searched around for you and longed to hear your voice
A lill' late to realise, You weren't there but with the person of your choice!

I sat there amidst people with my lonely heart
No babe, I wasn't desperate; it's you I missed and noone else from the start.
I reached out to look for your hands to hold
waited and waited, until my fingers went numb in the cold.

People giggled, laughed and danced;
I faked a quick smile, whenever they glanced.
It was obvious - I wasn't the last year's 'ME' and they asked why?
pretended I was drunk, no one believed - I can't even lie!

The candles burned and melted down
silence, loneliness, and pain left to surround.
The closed walls haunted me and your picture made me cry
Don't tell me to put it away 'coz u r not 'just another guy'!

I can't find a solace, nowhere can I go
every roads lead to you, I m stuck - that I know!
No, it's not ADHD, nor insomnia alone, and neither am I anorexic,
it was just a potion of your love that was fervidly toxic!

Stranded I m with an open wound and a scar for life,
With you, you took all that I needed to survive.
Please don't wish me a Happy New Year,
Since there's no more you, days ahead are filled with just tears.


Spare me a lill bit of your strength and some heartlessness;
Donate me my life, my youth, and my cheerfulness.
May be it's this time of the year that's making it even harder;
What a season u chose to abandon - Christmas, NewYear, anniversary, valentine's and my birthday are right around the corner.
You wouldn't care coz you've one more event added to the list of your holidays
Oh dear soul! I've been missing you more than any words can ever say!!!

   [ posted by sun_shine @ 02:57 AM ] | Viewed: 1315 times [ Feedback]

Was it the 'zeal' you showed when we first encountered?
Or was it the chemistry of the 'memories' we shared?
Was it the uniqueness in the way you approached?
Or was it just the way you stood and stared?

Was it the elegance you carried the first day?
Or was it the warmth you spread on the second?
Was it the arrogance and attitude you paralleled?
Or was it just something else and beyond?

Was it the pseudo name you said you were?
Or was it the way you shared your number?
Was it the charm you had in your eyes?
Or was it the fathom of your voice that woke me up from my slumber?

Was it the wind that had your presence that day?
Or was it the first message you sent as a text?
Was it the challenges you threw at me everyday?
Or was it the way you calmed me when I was vexed?

Was it the 'guy next door' look you had?
Or was it the sui generis in personality I saw?
Was it the cute different names you called me with?
Or was it the confidence you had when u shared your flaws?

Was it the first flowers you bought for me?
Or was it the way you hugged me tight?
Was it the way you first kissed me?
Or was it the conversation and compatibility we realized that night?

Was I destined to love you, then lose, when I was born?
Or was it actually the fate that was always torn?
Was it the ups and downs we went thro' all these years?
Or was it the way we cared, that held the bond?
I wonder - Patience, compassion, hope and dream; if that was the key?
Ohh!! It was the YOU in you that touched the Me in me!

   [ posted by sun_shine @ 02:08 AM ] | Viewed: 1452 times [ Feedback] (1 Comment)